Showing posts with label short stories. Show all posts
Showing posts with label short stories. Show all posts

Wednesday, 17 April 2024

It was always burning!

Have I Got Something To Tell You
Author: Malachi Edwin Vethamani
Listen
Do you want to know a secret?
Do you promise not to tell?
Whoa, oh, oh
Closer
Let me whisper in your ear
Say the words you long to hear
I'm in love with you
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh ooh…

Not too long ago, that was how it used to be. Now it is 'on your face'. Personal liberty, self-expression, and space availability have led to this. We didn't start the fire; it was always burning… just that it has found mainstream. 

Take the movies South Pacific and Ben Hur, which were made around the late 1950s. Movie connoisseurs would agree that those films had many not-so-subtle references to homoerotism. Nobody raised a red flag then, even though the American Motion Pictures Production Code (Hays Code) was quite clear about its guidelines regarding romance, gay issues, exposure of flesh and cleavage. The filmmakers tried to make South Pacific a feel-good war movie. Aside from the lush jungles, sunsets and beaches, it showed half-naked happy sailors dancing away into the evening. Ben Hur was marketed as a religious epic; again, these unspoken subtexts were buried in the story. The classic scene which did not raise an eyebrow then (but it does now) was when Ben-Hur and Messala drank wine from their chalices in an interlocked arm position, staring into each other's eyes. 

Both created little fanfare, then. … but it was always burning. 

Stories like these were also whispered in the hush in a profoundly conservative society like ours. Things were left to be heard and acted on the sly. Instead, people wore blinkers or buried their heads in the sand rather than accepted reality. 

Malachi Edwin Vethamani's 'Have I Got Something To Tell You' is a collection of stories that may be close to our hearts. It reminds us of the extraordinary journey that we, the citizens of Malaysia, experience in our daily lives. Challenges with race, religion, governmental policies, societal discrimination, and adolescent challenges are all too familiar.


South Pacific
Ben Hur




Wednesday, 21 April 2021

Within a generation?

Zindagi inShorts (Hindi, 2020)
Netflix

This is a collection of seven short stories, just nice for light viewing and those with a short attention span. It covers a myriad of topics, with women empowerment taking centre stage. In the first episode titled 'Pinni', a housewife with exceptional culinary expertise is only appreciated for her cooking skills but not for anything else. She is just viewed as a doormat - it is there to serve a purpose, but there is no need to go fancy about it. She strikes back when her husband got no time to remember her birthday.

'Sleeping partner' narrates how a woman's role is miniaturised in a family. She rebels by expressing her sexual freedom. See how she hits back when her lover starts blackmailing her. The story touches on marital rape. 'Sunnyside Upar' cajoles us to live out the only life given to us to its fullest via the experience of a young doctor in a cancer ward. Bad things happen to good people. Just deal with it. 'Nano so phobia' brings on the plight of a lonely elderly Farsi lady who has had once too many times cried wolf to be taken seriously. 'Chhaju ke Dahi Bhalle' shows how culturally close people from Lahore and Amritsar are. Through a dating app, a Muslim girl links up with a Sikh boy. After the pleasantries, they decided to meet up at a popular eatery. After failing to meet up, they realised that they were on either side of the India-Pakistan border.

'Thappad' is a story of empowerment where an adolescent sister with her younger brother stands up against bullies. 'Swaha' is a comical rendition of an insecure husband and supposed two-timing or three-timing wife. 

It is all well and fine that more and more women are finding their places in societies. Rightly they prosper from the opportunities that were denied from them earlier due to changing societal mores. The problem is that the rebel yell for change may be happening much too rapid than it can be handled by society. It seems that the morphing of female assertations is too drastic for their counterpart and the rest of the family unit. Like a single hard slap on the face before they can realise what hit them, things have morphed within a single generation. From the demure social norms abiding mums, they have metamorphosised to groundbreaking boardroom-chairing giant figures waiting to change the world. 

Herein lies the friction. Biologically, both sexes have their respective roles in societies. They are meant to complement each other, not compete against one another. The union of the male and female forces are interdependent. The energies of Siva and Parvathi are best when working in unison. The unabated individual force would only lead to self-destruction.

Let us look at the family unit. It has become acceptable these days that it is perfectly normal for a family unit to be led by a single parent. This does not, however, concur with the findings of many social researchers. They have linked poor students' academic achievements, high incidences of delinquencies, substance abuses, teenage pregnancies and its ensuing problems to single parenthood. A proper father figure and motherly touch seem essential in wholesome parenting.

The dominant role of the male in the family system has eroded. The traditional role of a strong protector and provider has somehow evolved. They are expected to appear strong and confident only on the outside for a picture-perfect display for the public. Within the four walls, they are expected to be emotionally dependent and easily be wrapped around the strings of their apron. But then, apron neither denotes feminine nor docility. When a male does not embrace this arrangement, he is deemed to exhibit masculine toxicity. That is dealt with by cancelling!

Monday, 30 November 2020

After all these years...

Stories by Rabindranath Tagore

Netflix (26 episodes; 2015)


Even though Tagore wrote these stories more than a hundred years ago, it remains fresh and relevant to today. 


Rabindranath lived at a time when India, as well as the rest of the world, was rapidly changing. His motherland, after missing the bus of the Industrial Revolution, thanks to the British East India Company and the British Empire, was doing catch up. Starting with the First Indian Rebellion @ Sepoy Mutiny in 1857, India had awoken. After being plundered by foreign forces repeatedly, it tried to make social and political changes. Many leaders emerged. Some approached them through political means, others through armed hostility and yet some via passive aggression. Tagore infiltrated the minds with his literary work.


This collection of twenty stories in twenty-six episodes cover a range of issues. The stories were authored by Tagore between 1890 and 1941, just before his death. They talk about the mistreatment of young widows, the evil dowry system, caste system, freedom in terms of Independence and free from incumbrances of life and society. Woman empowerment is a recurring theme, and his characters are mostly strong female characters.


Tagore's seminal novel ' Choker Bali' (Dust in the Eye) starts the series. A young widow tries to seduce the man who turned down her marriage as a revenge to her widowhood and the restrictions imposed on her by society. Atithi (Guest) is about a runaway boy who feels trapped, growing up in a restrictive home environment. He grows up in a zamindar's house only to run away again when marriage is proposed upon him with the landlord's daughter. There are just too much to learn from the world than to be exclusively tied down in one place.


It is a joy to see how each story segues into another. There is usually a common place where the path of the characters of one story meet with another, and the camera leads on to the next one.


'Maanbhajan' (Fury Appeased) is about another woman empowerment story. Left by her husband for an actress, the wife, fascinated by the theatre, becomes a famous actress herself in a poetic 'tit-for-tat' move. 


The series also includes a light comedy (Detective and Dhai Aakhar Prem Ka), a delve into the paranormal (Kankal and Monihara), a retelling of Satyajit Ray's 'Charulata' (Nastarinh), loneliness (Waaris), inclusiveness (Kabuliwalla), familial sacrifice (Shasthi), servile loyalty (Wafadaar), on domineering familial hierarchy (Aparchita and Mrinal ki Chitti) and the futility of vengeance (Dalia).


Rabindranath Tagore differed with some of the views held by Gandhi. Even though both fought for freedom, Tagore also wanted escapism from the clutches of unreasonable traditional beliefs. He also had the impression that we should embrace modernity Interestingly, Gandhi, who opposed the introduction of railways into India, used the Indian trains to disseminate all his ideologies to the masses. Both of them also had contrary outlooks of sex and relationships. Whilst Gandhi experimented with sexual abstinence, Tagore was freewriting about domestic issues and intrafamilial problems.

The series was a feast for the eyes. Kudos for the cinematography for bringing out the best in the outdoor camerawork can do. Viewers are transported back to the 1920s pre-Independent pre-Partition Bengal, complete with the serene and tranquil greenery, the props and costumes that befit the era. It is a joy to view the old Victorian-styled buildings and bulky antique furniture. It is highly recommended.

This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution 4.0 International. 


Thursday, 2 July 2020

We all came out of Gogol’s overcoat!

Namesake (2006)

We all wear coats to hide what we wear inside. Sometimes we are ashamed of what we have underneath and need to cover it all. At other times, it is chilly outside. Occasionally, what we have beneath it is inappropriate. Shame, political incorrectness or social awkwardness are all put aside; the real person under it all is the real us.

The act of being someone else that we are not may come back to bite us. Additionally, wearing blinkers and staying adamant about what we have without being receptive to positive external input is self-defeating.

Life is a learning experience. We are all eternal students picking up wisdom as we go. Our final destination is one that amalgamates all the wealth, baggage and tradition that we carry inside. In short, we are what we are but should not forget where we came from, but at the same time, learn to adapt and adopt our new environment.

We have often heard of Fyodor Mikhailovich Dostoyevsky, the famous Russian writer and his work surrounding human psychology and religion, mentioned in many classic movies. In this movie, the character is heard stating one of Dostoyevsky's famous sayings, 'We all came out of Gogol's overcoat'. Even though he meant that Nikholai Gogol had influenced later Russian writers, this phrase can be interpreted at different levels.

In Gogol's short story 'Overcoat', the protagonist, Akaky, a poor worker who is often teased by his co-workers for wearing a patched-up old coat. Embarrassed by this, Akaky saves up to buy a new overcoat. His co-workers rejoice by celebrating his purchase. Unfortunately, Akaky's joy is shortlived. He is mugged off his coat on his way back home in a poor neighbourhood.
That is the dilemma that most of us face in our daily lives. We are damned if we do and damned if we do not like Akaky, who is heckled for an old coat but robbed of an expensive one. In the same way, we do the best for our offspring giving the best that we can offer but expect to be as street-smart as the person who had survived the hard knocks of life. We pad their every fall but still expect them to be robust. We think the third world is not good enough for them to prosper but still expect them to have our ancestral values when they grow up immersed in their newfound motherland's cultures. The best they can do is to embrace the best of both worlds; the ancestral and sojourning homes.

Through the saga of an Indian professor who made the USA his home and his Indian wife plus their American-born children and Gogol's book, the screenwriters try to narrate the dilemma of NRIs. They are not quite American because of their names but yet feel alienated in India. They also cannot fit into what is perceived as Indian culture as is expected of them in the Indian community of the USA.

Sociologists have researched these children, whom they refer to as 'third-culture kids'. They discovered that after getting caught in cultures, though challenging, they become independent and confident and often benefit from their multicultural background.

An exciting presentation starring Irrfan Khan, Tabu and Kal Penn that makes you think. It will want you to find out more about Gogol and Russian literature.


Saturday, 31 August 2019

Oh deer! My deer...

https://kitaab.org/2019/08/31/short-story-oh-deer-my-dear/

Mitali Chakravarty   



Short Story: Oh Deer! My Dear…


By Farouk Gulsara
Malaysia National Day Special
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Like the Sword of Damocles, his domestic troubles hung over his head. There was nothing much he could do about it. It had gone on too long, too deep. He just had to live with it and move around it. He could not give up everything. There was a nagging heaviness in his temples. He knew things were going to take a nasty turn and it might get worse. He had created some arbitrary goals to improve his life, but this one had crashed it all. But still, life had to continue. As they say in showbiz, the show must go on.
He knew it was a bad idea. With all these problems plaguing him, he thought it was inappropriate for him to participate in this event. But then, it was also a lifetime achievement — a success hailed by his kinsmen as the epitome of his checkered life. Akin to a water lily, growing wild amongst the filth of marsh, stench and reptiles infested wetland to glorify the lotus feet of Buddha, it was an achievement enviable to some but yearned by all and privileged to only a few!
The problem, as he understood, was not something that developed overnight. Like a crystal, the lattice had developed over the years slowly but surely to its full wrathful glory. How could he be so dumb? Or was it beyond his control and was decided by the constellations and the genetic predisposition?
In other people’s faces, he saw joy and happiness. Flashlights from cameras blinded at intervals, a reminder for achievers to immortalise and digitise the moment. Unfortunately, for Gus, it was only melancholia. With philosophical rationalisation, he decided to forgo everything. He resolved to enjoy the moment, to be in the spotlight, to immerse himself, to bask in the glory of the moment. After all, it was not every day that a lowly village doctor gets feted at the Royal College of the Obstetricians and Gynaecologists in London.
Gus Muniandy had given up the simple things in life to serve the rural poor of the Malayan peninsula. Despite offers of postgraduate degrees and the lure of the city lights, Gus answered the calling to dedicate his service to uplift the living standards of the marginalised aboriginal community of the country. Ever since he attended to a young teenage mother who almost bled to death during parturition, Gus made it his divine calling to prevent such an event from ever occurring in that community.
It was all from a page of memory from a time so long ago. Maybe he was too engulfed in his obsession with saving the world; he failed to see the elephant in the room. He neglected his duties as a father. His loving daughter’s cry for help fell on his deaf ears. If only he had realised her yearning for unrequited love and her quest for release through intoxicants. If only Gus could turn back time.
His professional duties, however, did not go unnoticed. His single-handed efforts to improve the awareness amongst the community to women empowerment, equal educational opportunities and need for antenatal care caught the eye of the authorities and the obstetric fraternity. What followed next was the flurry snowballing of accolades and salutations. If only things were equally fulfilling on the family front!
“Professional studio photography, sir?” somebody suggested, pointing enticingly at the display of families of graduates flashing their enamel possessions as if they were advertising for a tooth care product.
“No, thanks,” said Gus as he hurried through the main hall. “What is the meaning of all these things,” he thought to himself, “when there is no peace of mind?” His mind wandered through his childhood. He recalled all those seemingly desperate times when sad songs were the flavour of the day. Happiness was then an unattainable feat. The future was stretched out before him so that he could just walk and harvest its fruits. “Oh, how I had longed for this day!” Gus lamented. “But do I want to go through all of it again?”
Just as his mind was deeply engrossed in the nostalgia of yesteryears, his daydream was interrupted. “Do you have any food preferences, sir?” the lady at the reception voiced out, appearing slightly irritated, probably as Gus’s appearance did not exude cordiality.
“Pardon ma’am?” Gus replied politely.
“Do you have any preferences for your dinner, vegetarian or vegan?” the receptionist read out mechanically.
“We are okay,” Gus replied in unison, with his wife nodding in agreement.
“As long as there is no beef.”
“So, can we serve you vegetarian? Since we are serving deer meat tonight,” she replied.
“Dear meat?”
“Yes, deer meat!”
Then it hit Gus and his wife. “You mean you are serving venison!”
Gus, chuckling inside, wanted to see the change in the receptionist’s face.
Though we may look Indian on the outside and are not so metropolitan in the way we dress, she should have guessed that the guests, especially the ones on the honour list, the ones appreciated enough by the esteemed British college, would be likely to be well conversant in English, thought Gus.
She must have been some actress or perhaps a right hand at poker as she never flinched a muscle giving away a clue that she might be embarrassed.
Gus was in two minds to start his sermon on how words like mutton, venison, beef etcetera came to the English language from French, but against his better judgement, he decided to keep it for another occasion another day. After all, Gus was a feted guest and guests ought to behave at the highest etiquette to honour his host. Maybe sweet revenge would come another day…
I swear I had seen that surname somewhere, cogitated Gus. But Indie? Surely it must be a shortened version of the name Indiana. Indiana for a British? Strange. Anyway, I never understood why someone who would name a child after a state. Saying that Malaysia was the most popular newborn girl’s name in the United States of America last year among the black community. The only association between England and Indiana that I remember was the riddle when I heard as a young adult about where Prince Charles spent his honeymoon!
In the modern age, when in doubt, what does a sane person usually do? Google of course. Within a fraction of a second upon typing the surname of the staff of the college, the whole anthroponymy of the said name appeared in full glory. Now, it made sense. I could not have guessed, thought Gus. When she offered vegetarian food for dinner, was she under the impression that venison and beef were from the same ‘cattle of fish’ (pardon the pun)? I was wondering why she said, ‘deer meat’? My usually dull grey cells went into hyperdrive. I thought that perhaps she was one of those true-blue Anglophile, who was trying to restore the old glory of the English language. She was attempting to revive the language to a period before it was corrupted by foreign words from the self-appointed bourgeois societies like the French or the contamination of the returning officers of the British Raj, who boasted of being familiar with everything in the world while indulging in a bout of logorrhoea laced with gibberish.“Jungle, bungalow, khaki, juggernaut, loot, shampoo. We have our own words,” they said just like any hardliner would say. “And we need no ham, no mutton and certainly, no venison.” We need to keep our language clean just like our bloodlines!
Gus’s little research revealed that the ‘deer meat’ lady is indeed a descendant of those that the British Raj tried to abandon in 1947. Her surname was a dead giveaway, originating from the cattle-breeders’ clan of the Punjab Valley. Her pale complexion and her pseudo-accent had fooled me. For all you know, ‘Indie’ could have been an abbreviation of ‘Indira’.
“My, my, Oh righty!” she had said in a typically British manner, he recalled.
In the same way, a Farsi by birth, Farrokh Bulsara, born in Zanzibar, grew up in India, became Freddy Mercury to blend well into the society to become a British icon, Indira Kaur Gill had become Indie Gill.
Gus was telling himself, “Here we are, two descendants of the Indian subcontinent, one displaced to one colony and another deciding to snuggle up with the masters trying to outdo each other thinking that one is more British and know more English than the other! Interesting coolie mentality.”
But then how different are we, really?
Top post on IndiBlogger, the biggest community of Indian BloggersGus’s grandparents decided that India was too toxic to bring up their children in the trying years of the early twentieth century when mob rule, violence, injustice and uncertainty were the order of the day. Their gamble brought his parents to a fresh green land called Malaya. Like a chameleon changing its hue to the surroundings, the new nation became their land. The challenges meeting its population became their own. Their souls became embroiled in that of their new found motherland. It was not a case of abandoning a biological mother to find a stepmother but to relieve instead a grieving Mrs Hubbard of feeding her hungry offspring while living in a shoe.
And there Gus stands proudly for deeds done for the only motherland that he knew. Even though on the outside, anyone could tell from a mile away that he must be an offspring of the Indian diaspora, Gus felt every inch a Malaysian on the inside. For that matter, he had not even set foot in India. Flying over its airspace would not count.
Indie, or Indira’s family or perhaps, ancestors must have thought long and hard to decide that the United Kingdom was the place to be. Growing far from cousins in India, Indie would have yearned to be wanted, to be one of the contemporaries that she grew up with. Her mother tongue would have appeared aversive, perhaps even too derogatory for her liking. Pretending to know the collie’s language, English, with the local flavours would have suited just fine. There you have, Indie Gill, as British as Beefeaters can be.
Perhaps, it was not a case of economic pull and push only. After years of tyranny and subjugation, people of the Indian subcontinent have landed where they are by the twisted fate of history. Everywhere they laid their hats, it became their home and they embraced their adopted home wholeheartedly; much like how Gus is very much a Malaysian and Indie, a British. Perhaps, at some point a common unifying thread may ignite their common past akin to the chorus of Men at Work’s super hit song ‘Down Under’ where the mention of something quintessentially Australian brings all the characters in the melody together.
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Farouk Gulsara is a daytime healer and a writer by night. After developing his left side of his brain almost half his lifetime, this johnny-come-lately decides to stimulate his non-dominant part on his remaining half. An author of two non-fiction books, ‘Inside the twisted mind of Rifle Range Boy’ and ‘Real Lessons from Reel Life’, he now ventures into the genre of fiction. He writes regularly on his blog ‘Rifle Range Boy’.





Saturday, 25 May 2019

Short Story: Gandom, Gandom by Farouk Gulsara

https://kitaab.org/2019/05/25/short-story-gandom-gandom-by-farouk-gulsara/

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Half a decade after the Japanese invasion, Malaya was wising up. Malayans did not believe that their colonial masters were their saviours anymore. Everyone was talking about independence and everyone was laughing a lot these days.
People seemed to be in a hurry. Office workers, in long dark baggy trousers and long sleeved starched cotton shirts, wove through pedestrians, scurrying on their shiny new bicycles, ringing their bells. The cyclists appeared to be annoyed by the slow-moving bullock cart with lethargic bulls sauntering along the tarmacadam roads swishing their tails rhythmically in the tropical heat of Penang. Honking in the background on the island’s little street were the Morris Minors and the Austin multi-purpose vehicles, the latest additions to the city landscape. Oblivious to the vexation they were causing, the pullers of the bullock cart batted their lush eyelashes, seemed to mutter something into their chest and continued to drag their load at their own leisurely pace.
Penang Island did not want to be left behind. Penangites of all races — Malays, Chinese, Indians and Eurasians — seemed to be of one heart trying to rebuild their town as they said it had been. The world had modernised and they wanted to keep pace. The men from the East were no liberators but squanderers of wealth. Now, the British had returned to resume pilfering the lion’s share of their loot.

That year, 1952, had been declared by the Government as the year of ‘education for all’. The future inheritors of power realised if the nation was going to have self-rule, it needed people who could read and write. Truant officers were there to implement just that. Their job would be to walk around town to track down boys and girls of school-going age who were not in school.
I was in standard six, and I had grand ambitions. The stories that Ma had been telling all these years had convinced me that the only way to come up in life was by getting a good education. Her oft-repeated descriptive tales of her comfortable life in her childhood rang like mantras in my ears. Many times, she had told us of Pa’s privileged childhood and how he had squandered it all away in a single generation; entertaining friends, merrymaking and gambling. No matter how hard Ma tried to put things in order, she seemed to be fighting a losing battle. She pinned her hopes on me to bring the honour back to the clan. She knew that there was no substitute for education to prosper in life.
“We do not have money or property to come up in life,” she frequently repeated. “The only way to get out of this rut is to study.”
My Pa had other ideas.
Top post on IndiBlogger, the biggest community of Indian BloggersIf Ma thought that it was her duty to bring out the best in her children, Pa was just the opposite. His notion of having children was to have them serve their parents for having brought them into this world. The youngster’s duty was to pay back for their existence. In his mind,  I was old enough to earn him some extra cash to get him going. I knew it was wrong, but I felt helpless.
Oh, no! There he was again. From the open door at the back of the classroom, I could see him. He was walking briskly in the direction of my classroom, coming from the principal’s office. Three times already this week, Pa had come to my school. It was the same old story — that my mother was very sick, and I had to go back to take care of her. And surprisingly, my teacher was buying his crap.
If only I could tell my school teacher, “Teacher, don’t trust him.” If only I could give her the real story of what was happening in the house.
“No, my mother is just fine,” my mouth yearned to yell. “She is very much alive and kicking. No, she is not sick. No, she does not need my help. And yes, she will give me a nice whacking if only she comes to know what I am doing when I am supposed to be at school.”
As it was only a few weeks since I had joined this school, Lutheran Primary School, I did not have many friends. I was a loner, and this chronic absence from class just made others look at me as though I was some strange creature.
Time stood still. The rest of the class seemed immersed in the lesson in hand but not me. Ah Chong, Mani, Ali, Peter and others were all attending to what the teacher, Mrs Chin,  taught. To me, her explanation on multiplicative functions sounded like a muffled horn  from a distance.
I tried not to look at Pa’s direction. I was hoping that he would just change his mind and go away. I turned to see, but I could not find him. I thought he had left only to discover that he had gone around the corner to take the stairs towards my classroom. I tried to concentrate on Mrs Chin’s lesson, but the anxiety was just too much. I could see her scribbling away on the blackboard. The squeaking of chalk on the blackboard gave an eerie background score to the drama that I endured daily. I could hardly make out her mumbling as my senses numbed in anticipation of his arrival. Like clockwork, like a boomerang that returned to its owner every time, like a recurrent nightmare, Pa kept returning.
“Excuse me, teacher,” he said apologetically. I had to give it to him. In spite of his relatively low educational achievements, he had the gift of the gab and a  flair for languages. My mother told me that he had had a privileged upbringing in his childhood only to lose everything in a single generation. However, he still had the gift of bossing everybody around. His excellent language skills seem to be his only inheritance from his now blemished past.
Pa had a good life, at least in his childhood. Being the only heir to an up and coming industrialist in 1930s’ Malaya, he was placed high on a pedestal. His parents were too busy making money and dealing with relatives’ problems and he was left to grow with the servants. The workers gave in to all his whims and fancies. He could get away with murder. A tiny squeal here and a small tantrum there, he knew how to wind them around his little finger.
Ma used to say that she heard somewhere that wealth in a family does not last more than three generations, but in Pa’s, it evaporated in only one. Pa’s parents used to be the proud owners of the tallest building in Penang which housed the once famous Dawood Restaurant where the affluent indulged in fine Indian dining. To match their wealth were fleets of cars, but now, Pa had to content himself chauffeuring others around.
Even though good fortune seemed to have fled, he had not lost the art of living life to the fullest. Pa still lived in his old ways. His pockets could be empty, but his appearance had to be spick and span. Come what may, whether the dinner table was barren or it was time to buy books for school term; it was all the same to him.
His brown leather shoes had to be sparkling shiny. The creases of his starched attire had to stay fresh. His hair needed grooming, and a daily shave at the barber’s was essential. He lived to eat. His palate still craved for the cuisines that he enjoyed in his childhood. Saving for a rainy day was not in his vocabulary. His philosophy seemed to work well for him — enjoy today what you may not live to enjoy tomorrow. What if tomorrow never comes?
“The birds and trees grow, why can’t you? Somebody planted the seeds, and there would be someone who would come along to water them,” he repeatedly said. “You, don’t worry. Be happy.”
Mrs Chin looked in my direction, all the way to the last row. I found sitting at the back of the class did well for me as it gave me space to ponder over my future. Sometimes I thought of Ma and relived all the stories that she told about her childhood and the prosperous life that my parents had in their formative years. I sometimes wondered how it must feel to be rich. I would not have to face the constant yelling at the end of the month when Ma ran out of money. I wanted to be rich. I wanted to be somebody.
Mrs Chin was calling for me. The classroom suddenly became quiet. There was pin-drop silence. I could swear that everybody in the class had both their eyes focused directly on me.  I could feel my cheek turn hot. I secretly wished that I could just disappear just like that. Poof!
“Thamby, come, boy, come. Pack your books,” she said in a gentle voice. “Take care of your mother well. So sorry you have to miss the class. Don’t worry; I’ll teach this again tomorrow.”
If only she knew, if she just knew where I was taken daily during schooling hours.
It was a routine. Pa would come bundled with my home clothes into which I would change. He would take my books and uniform, pack them up like an old newspaper and shoo me to our destination, the marketplace. He thought of everything. He did not want me to stand out in the crowded marketplace in full view of the truant officers. His mission was to take me by stealth to the porridge stall so that I could help and earn. The money would go to him, of course.
We approached the morning market. Housewives who came early to get their best picks of fishes and vegetables had finished their marketing and gathered around the food stalls.  The food stalls were selling delicacies like hot noodles and traditional sweet cakes of a variety of colours and tastes. The stalls were strategically located in the centre of the market in plain view for all to see. Anyone who ran in just to buy a thing or two from the vegetable seller or fishmonger was bound to drop in to buy something to eat. The hit among all the stalls had to be the gandom(wheat porridge) stall.
Business was brisk that morning, as usual. Many hungry mouths were waiting, salivating at the anticipation of indulging in the much-talked-about gandom of Mamak (uncle) Wahab, the well-known food vendor. Nobody knew just how long Wahab had been peddling his famous delicacies but he seemed to know everybody, the officers as well as the lowly coolies. People were quick to explain why his cooking pulled such a huge crowd. They talked about unique secret ingredients and Indian herbal intoxicants.
A bowl of gandom. Courtesy: GC
In Mamak Wahab’s stall were two large baskets. A sizeable wide-bodied aluminium pot fitted snugly into each of the baskets above a canister filled with hot burning charcoal. In the pot simmered sweet wheat porridge, gandom, cooked in coconut milk and flavoured with fragrant pandan leaves. In spite of the various aromas in the air, pungent smell of the different meats, fermented food, preserved, air-dried sea produce and human body odours, the scent of sweet gandom still stood out.
The sight of steaming wheat porridge in small china bowls with little porcelain spoons and the locally baked aerated bread attracted many customers. The patrons of the stall were mainly wharf workers who took their morning break from their back-breaking task of unloading cargo off the onion-carrying vessels that had just arrived from Madras.
Occasionally, housewives would drop in to take away a pack or two for loved ones. The women dropped in silently, softly whispered their orders, looking down towards the ground, as if bashful, and without raising their glance, they paid the exact change and hurried away. It seemed they did not feel comfortable being in the company of too many men, in particular with the port workers who carried a reputation of being rough and tough.
The ladies kept returning. The gandom must be too tasty, I guessed. It was during one of these moments that I caught a glimpse of my nosy neighbour, Santi. She had the reputation of carrying tales around the neighbourhood. She found much joy in finding faults and ruining other people’s family.
I ducked the very moment I saw her. The last thing I wanted was for her to tell Ma as I did not want to witness another shouting match in the family. I had enough of that. On the other hand, I secretly wished that she would, as that would mean I could get back to school. I was quite sure I missed her roving eyes.
GandomGandomMari, Mari (come here)!” The call was given to entice potential customers who might have been so caught up in their thoughts that they would miss the sweet aroma of the starchy broth that brewed and bubbled in the huge containers.
My hide and seek existence lasted for almost three weeks. Pa had been turning up at school unannounced. He would make the same excuse, pick me up, take me to the stall and then back home by the evening. The journey home would be laced with threats of severe repercussions if our little secret were to leak out. If only Ma knew about the truancy, I was sure to be dead meat. So would Pa. But did he care?
All my toil and manual labour earned me nothing. For, when the time came to close the stall for the day, Pa would faithfully be there to unburden me off of my meagre daily wages.
I was in two minds — should I or should I not tell Ma about our covert operation? All I had to do was to squeal to Ma. But I dreaded the result. It would be an all-night shouting match. I had had one too many, and I could do well without another one.
Our little secret, however, did not stay undercover for long. The market was not the best place for concealment. And neither was the sight of a 12-year-old manning the stall and serving customers. The delicious taste of gandom drew more customers as the days went by.  It also attracted Santhi, Ma’s chit-chat buddy. She  repeatedly came back for second helpings. She finally spotted me. Obviously, I had not been vigilant enough.
Actually, I would say, Ma was more of Santhi’s chit-chat buddy. Ma was just a convenient listener to all of Santhi’s tall tales. She would go on a rant, gossiping about the latest ‘masala’ that had taken place in the neighbourhood and amongst the relatives’ circles. It would usually be a one-sided conversation with Santhi doing all the talking punctuated with Ma’s occasional nods and grunts of acknowledgement.
Santhi came all riled up to clear her bosom off her latest discovery. As usual, draped in light coloured cottons and a big rounded bun with a day-old jasmine flowers at her occiput, she was especially excited. She hurried through the door announced by the clinging of her silver anklets and called for Ma. Ma smiled to herself to see such a grown woman in such a huff, all excited like a young girl. Her fifty sen coin-sized crimson red vermilion bindi with her turmeric treated face and big round eyes added to her comical presence.
“Letchumy, Letchumy. Why you stopped your son from schooling?” she asked, quite out of breath, after running all the way from her home. “He is a bright boy, such a waste.”
“No, no. It can’t be.” Ma thought. “I trust Thamby. He is going to reach greater heights and salvage the family dignity. She is talking rubbish.”
***
Santhi, the rumour monger, went to great lengths to make herself available that morning. She rose early from bed to prepare breakfast for the family. Her thosai was awkwardly asymmetrical, and the coconut chutney must have had double servings of salt and tamarind. Oh, but what the heck! It was going to be an exciting day, and she was not going to give it up for these trivialities. A day of salty gravy must be okay, she thought. After all, without fail, she had provided 364 days of crispy sizzling steaming hot thosai with accompaniments.
Quickly, she packed her husband off to work and her two kids off to school and hurried to Lakshmi’s abode.
“I heard he only reaches there at about 11,” said Santhi. “That gives us time to have tea and catch up with stories.”
A disinterested Lakshmi obliged. Her mind was filled with thoughts of Thamby manning a porridge stall while entertaining his blue-collar clientele. The customers of the marketplace were mostly from the port and not the best role models. Their crude talk, lingo and doublespeak innuendoes would sway Thamby from his true callings in life… to salvage the family from the rut of debts and ruins.
So immersed was Lakshmi in her mental soliloquy that she had mixed salt into Santhi’s tea instead of the usual sugar! Santhi, yearning to meet her mid-morning craving of sweet, foamy milk tea, sipped  the concoction to savour its richness when …“Amma!” she almost cried. Her taste buds froze with the saline impregnated tea! However, in  anticipation of the excitement of what the day promised, she just politely put away the tea. She did not want to delay their planned ambush at the porridge stall.
On reaching the marketplace, like stalking tigresses, Lakshmi and Santhi slowly prowled to the vicinity of the sweet wheat grain stall. The stall was teeming with sweaty port labourer just off for their break. The sweet aroma of the sizzling wheat porridge fragranced with pandan leaves and the pungent odour of perspiring men gave a dizzying olfactory sensation. Although buried in their food, the men were not busy enough to give a cursory assessing look at Lakshmi and Santhi. They lost interest with what they saw. Lakshmi had no time to notice anything. Her mind was all out to prove that Santhi had been wrong all the while. Now, where was that stall?
Oversized men slurping their meals standing around the large wheat broth stall was an excellent cover up for whoever manned it. Lakshmi needled herself through the crowd. Under her breath, she uttered her silent prayer.
“Muruga, Muruga, let it be not him,” she chanted. “What torture is this. What is my family coming too? Must light an oil lamp at the temple after all this is over,” she reminded herself.
Between two burly men, she saw it all. Like an avalanche, her hopes came crashing down. She could not believe what she saw — Thamby busily serving the hungry men with their bowls of nourishment. Her jaw dropped. Hurrying through the utensils, the pans and the appliances,  the disgusted and disappointed Lakshmi grabbed her prized pint-sized possession by his protruding bat ears and dragged him all the way home with occasional lambasting by the earful.
That night was hell for the Muthu household. Loud decibels of screams pierced the neighbourhood. This type of emotional display was becoming the norm of late. What a sad state of affairs! How I wished that it would all disappear just like that?
The neighbourhood, by now, was quite accustomed to the wailing of Lakshmi and the haughty rebuttal by Muthu, the once-promising heir of Periyathamby Kallar.
At the other end, in Santhi’s abode the tone was one of serenity. It was business as usual. Santhi was lullabying her children to sleep. Santhi, on hearing the distant sounds of Lakshmi’s wail, pondered to reflect whether she did the right thing. She felt guilty for secretly being content in the thick of things. She wondered if her actions were justifiable. After much deliberation, she shrugged off any compunctions. She told herself that what she did was morally right. She exposed the truancy of boy with high potentials, preventing him from plunging deep into decadence. That cannot be wrong, can it?


“Be afraid. Be very afraid.”*